I'm not really the dramatic sort, like those kind of people who make a tragedy out of seemingly nothing. I was working at my new job as a waitress today, working my ass off and generally enjoying being the 'shiny new toy'. One of the more experienced waiters, thirty something with maddeningly orange hair and freckles everywhere, complemented my 'excellent performance' at work.
It made me smile sadly, though. How I long to hear those same exact words in another context, you have no idea. Preferably while the spotlight is still blinding me, the stage creaking with movement and everywhere is roaring applause.
But I feel there are so many endless small steps before you ever get to the important ones, that you get lost in the way. Your dream looses brightness and then starts to fade, so that ultimately what you'll be left with is a vague idea of a wish and a memory of longing.
So this is what I ask. How do you not lose yourself in the way? How do you not ask yourself 'what if'?
What do you do to keep your dream alive?
2 comments:
The only way to keep a dream alive is by indulging in it.. However you can indulge in it. If its by being in a small stage production or even reading monologues out loud to yourself. Sometimes just knowing what your heart desires and having the courage and strength to pursue it, can be enough to hold onto it and not lose sight of yourself.
My dream is to one day see my writing published.. To see my photos grace an art gallery wall. To travel the world, writing new stories and shooting photos of my adventures. What keeps these dreams alive for me is by writing about them. Creating my own alternate universe where everything I want happens.
Maybe I'm a little impatient, that's what it is. I dream and dream and act monologues to myself and it's all wonderful. I've got a lovely world up in my mind but now I need it to happen for real.
I think at some point, we start needing reassurance by having the approval of our public, you know? Having them let us know that what we do is beautiful and sought after. Like having your pictures asked for and your writing read. And having people come sit in the audience just for you.
It's such a long way to go, though...
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