How I feel is absolutely exhausted. My friend came to 'see me' all the way from London and what I feel like is a babysitter that's underpaid and underrated. And you could take this wrong or not. But I don't like having someone stuck to my side 24/7. I don't like having to think about feeding them and showing them places. Worrying about whether they're enjoying themselves or not. Sharing my personal space. My story.
This is why I don't do relationships. This is why I don't want a boyfriend. The fact that your friends don't demand sex and/or constantly try to touch some part of you doesn't make it any less better. Actually, I think that's what makes it worse.
And I feel so drowsy and fucked up. I can't sleep, my voice isn't quite right and I feel hungover without the alcohol and the funny memories.
All I want is some quiet inside my head, and some alone time.
So why do I feel so bad, me being a tad bit anti social? I'm happy that my friend came over. But I've seen enough of her now, we've caught up. I just want her to leave so I can carry on with the routine she's disrupted.
I don't like being depended upon. If she'd just come over and stayed at mine's and hung out in the evening, that would have been perfect.
Why do people have to keep on pushing at your boundaries?
Is this weird of me?
I just want space.
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It's not weird at all. I get that. Everyone needs his/her space - some people more than others. Nothing wrong with that.
Independence as a quality is muchos underrated.
I was in a hysterical fit this afternoon, simply because I haven't been able to sleep with someone in my room for the past ten days. What with me actually having a life and having to cope with somebody else's and having to hold conversations on a regular basis, it's more than this girl can cope with...
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