Find what you're afraid of most...

"Find value in what we've been taught is worthless. Find good in what the world says is evil [...] I wish the whole world would embrace what it hates. Find what you're afraid of most, and go live there" - from Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk.

Because these words seems to be haunting me, keep coming back to me in some form or another. And I honestly do think it makes sense. To try and do the things you're afraid of the most.
Because ironically, the things you really want to be doing the most, your hopes and your dreams and your plans... they terrify you. They're the monsters hiding under your bed, the skeletons hiding in your closet. Your screech in the dark.
Because you're afraid of failure. Because you're afraid that if you fail, you have to start rebuilding your hopes and your dreams and your plans, your whole life up from scratch.
'T comes with the whole other side of the penny, as they say. And it's scary as hell and incredibly lonely, exposing yourself to yourself. Did that come out right?
And I guess living on the edge is not doing 'crazy', 'different' things. It's giving in to your dreams and plans and following them no matter what, with the possible risk of coming back with your tail between your legs , having to start all over again.
Being yourself, well, it's not that easy. Having to own up to your faults and accept all the things you don't like about yourself, it's shit but it's growing up.
Try to be as untrained as possible. Find things out on your own, on your own terms.
Learn how to learn.
And do the things that scare you the most.