Deservingly?

Because no matter how much you tell yourself that you know this, you know this, it doesn't mean you've accepted it. And by this, I mean how we live in a constant state of randomness. There are no patterns, and probability trees only exist in math. The output is not directly proportional to the input. What we do doesn't always pay off. And what we don't do is sometimes worth more than any imaginable action. There is no Lady Luck. And the stars have not spent millions of years realigning themselves in such a position so as to tell you in what month you'll be meeting the love of your life. But we're all so desperate for guidance and reassurance that we'd believe in anything.
Someday, when and if you'll be ready to stop believing all the fairy tale talk you've been fed, you'll acknowledge the fact that everything you receive in life is not something you have necessarily neither earned nor deserved.
You've been forcefully shoved into this world, blind and ignorant. Force fed a bunch of ideals to soothe the aching heart but not the mind, as useful as a map that only has ' you are here ' written all over it.